Just Venting

So I havent really have anything exciting to post. my life is pretty typical , i stay home all day and take care of all my kids. pretty basic. lol right. yeah thats what i love., so i went to the doctor on monday, i took kaitlyn, riley and chris. I got an ultrasound and we all got to see our new little addition wave his/her hand., it was too cute, but im only 9 weeks i didnt know they could do that by now. oh well, so far so good, im not sick anymore thank goodness, and unfortunately I am starting to feel pregnant, and gain a belly and some weight ( i think) i havent weighed my self. but hey this is what i wanted right?

yes it is, sometimes I'm not to sure, when my kids give me a hard time, I'm like how the heck and I gonna do this with a baby. Maybe 1 out of 5 times i have a hard time with my kids, so thats not to bad right? am i gonna be able to take care of 5 kids mostly by myself? I havent been able to sleep cause that is on my mind constantly. I really want this I do... But I think it is normal for any mother to be scared of raising all 5 kids ( well any mother that has 5 kids) and think can i do this without going insane?

So what can I do to help me sleep better? not to mention Kaitlyn isnt sleeping either, she is starting to have nightmares and I dont know what to do about them. I get up with her, take care of what she needs. get her back to sleep, but then I cant sleep, I am worried about her. so I just lay there... what do i do.

well i guess i have done enough complaining. lol i always tell me kids not to complain and here i am complain. oh well. I am really exciting for November 1. I will be 20 weeks and we will be able to find out what I am having ( hopefully) what will it be a boy or girl.

I dont care what I have, chris, riley and chris say girl. mike says boy..who is gonna be right?